Don't take it personally, I just want to be alone

I know the title of this sounds harsh and rude, but it’s not. If you read it in a sarcastic tone, it will make sense.

I tend to spend a lot of time by myself, like too much. I work in a fast pace environment, so any second to my self is a true blessing. I enjoy doing things on my own. I don’t beat myself up for liking to be alone or feel like I don’t have friends. But more than likely, I end up doing things on my own. It’s just easier for me. I can move at my own pace and leave when I want.

If you haven’t guessed it, I’m introverted, but that doesn’t mean I don’t like to socialize or have fun. I love to be around people and their energy. Many extroverted people assume that if a person is introverted, that means they’re anti-social or boring. The irony is that most people mistake me for an extrovert. I’ve told that I “keep the energy going” and I’m dumbfounded. The only time I’m “outgoing” or seen as extroverted is when I’m in an environment that I want to be. Since I’m always by myself, I enjoy telling people about the things I watched, read, or seen while being alone.

However, I know I can be overly selective about how I spend my time. I can be too overly selective to the point I miss opportunities to network or meet new people because I decided to stay home instead.

In the same breath, I don’t feel the need to always be with people. I don’t feel like I can’t have fun if I’m not with another person. I enjoy being by myself, that’s where I get my energy. I enjoy solitude, not isolation. It’s a choice that I consciously make. When you do something because you want to, it’s different than doing something because you have to. When you do something because you want to, the outcome is always better. You feel confident in your decision and whatever the consequence you have, it’ll be worth it. When you do something because you have to, you’re not doing it for you. You’re doing it for someone else or feel like society won’t accept you if you do that thing, whatever it is. That’s how I feel about being solo all the time. I do it because I want to.